Wow, I really haven't uploaded in a while. I wanted to blog everyday, but I have been too busy or too stupid to write and blog it here. I have been working on a movie collection of all my SIN For Shorts into one movie. I hope I can do that on Newgrounds and it does well and won’t get blamed. I mean, animation collabs do well here, so, yeah. But it’s taking a long… AGAIN! I thought I was done with this shit with my new drawing tablet

What I really want to talk about is my problem with being an introvert.

My two older sisters drove to visit our friend's house without me. I mean, I could have come, but I wasn’t told ahead of time, or maybe I wasn’t listening that well. So I just stayed at home and gave them the person I wanted to give to that friend. But that made me think… I’M SO FUCKING LONLEY. I don’t even talk to my high school friends anymore. I also got a new phone and lost half of the phone numbers, so now I have to find time to find them, if I can find them or have time to do it.

I spend more time on my projects than being with real people. I still go outside, but only on walks around my neighborhood. I used to go on long walks and bike rides to places I had never been before. Like farms. When I got back home, my legs hurt… I miss that. I miss going to the comic job and playing games and buying comics that I'm most likely not going to read. Just like steam games. I want to get a new comic box, but blank so I can put my Spiderman stickers on. I miss my friends visiting my home and we play games.

Is this what it takes being a great Artist, Animator, and Writer? Being a lonely cunt? That really sucks. I need to remember what Max G said. Get a real job and do the other stuff as a hobby.

My older brother tells me stories about his childhood, teenagehood and adulthood. He's very Social and had a lot of fun. All I did was go on the internet and play flash games and watch flash cartoons. And it was very hard to do when you didn't know how to read or write.

I'll be writing my Noob Years blog and I'll get back to writing shitpost blogs.

I might not be able to make a How To on how to make the Madness Puppets. I'm so sorry.

I've been reading the comic book MAUS, and it's my favorite Christmas book of all time. I didn’t get this book for Xmas, I just borrowed it from the library.

What I did get was the comic book Batman Killing Joke, but two times. My older brother and sister got me two, so my older sister is going to return her copy and get me Dark Knight returns.

I also got Mario + Rabbids 2, but only for the Rayman DLC, but I did get it because my other older sister didn't know how to do that. But I was okay with it.

I also got some Magic cards and two FNAF mystery toys. I hope I get Toy Chica.

For this whole Christmas day. I've been spending it with my two older sisters, my dad and his girlfriend. We went for a nice walk in a forest park. We ate at an IHOP where I ate Wonka purple Pancakes and Wonka cotton candy lemonade. Don't get me wrong, they were super good, but I never want to eat them again because I don't want to die.

I also watch the movie The Boy and the Heron with my older sister, while my other sister, my dad and his girlfriend watch The Boys and the Boat. I wish I had watched the boat movie because it takes place in WW2 and I'm a sucker for WW2. But the anime movie was still good. But I really hope that one bird wasn't Jewish. Wait, what year did that anime movie take place? Fuck. You know what, that's the last time I'm watching an anime movie with my older sister that loves anime. I always wish I could watch something else. Like the time I watched the MHA world hero movie and I wanted to watch Halloween Kills. Right now, I'm looking at Christmas houses.

That's all I want to say for now.

I hoped you all had a good Christmas.

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Finals are over and I should get back to making animtions.

Happy late Hanukkah.

I'm done with the comic and my finals. I feel like my finals could have been better if I knew it was going to start early in the morning and if I worked harder on my finals and not look up 

. I was so stressed about it. I got a good talk from a worker at the Jr college and that made me think about... life and my career. I should really make more notes about this stuff. I shouldn’t have more free time to do nothing. But I can use that time to make art and animation.

I mean… look, read this if you give a shit or not. I'm fine if you don’t. My mom and dad both have jobs with health care. And so is my older brother and sister. But do I want to do that? 

Doing what you love, like art and animation is not a real career if you're doing it by yourself and not really getting paid. Would like to get paid. I mean.

I'm a autistic idiot, so do I stand a chance in a healthcare job? I mean, what job do I want in Health care?  I don't really want to talk to people a lot.

I want to continue making art and animation, but I don’t want to end up like Hot Diggity Demon AKA Max G. Look, I like the guy and love his stuff. But I don’t want to be kicked out. He said it himself that you shouldn’t be like him. I'm too lazy to make a link, but it was a Interview is Dath Pina. He said something like get a real job that will let you live and do the art stuff as a hobby where you can get paid.

Art can't be my full time job… Can it? No it can't 

Look, I'm not stopping making cool stuff. I'm just thinking about how you can be an adult and make money so I can continue being alive. I'm overthinking this stuff again. I don’t like that.

I feel like I should be more open about this. And maybe I should finish that book about Not Giving Fuck, and I don't have to over think these things and go with the flow with my life. Is that a good idea? Just going what's happening? I…

I'm not making this clear. I'm just saying things that come to my mind and no right order. I'm writing this on a bus right now, so I feel sorry for any dumbass for reading all of this. But thanks for reading and happy Holidays and new year. 

I should buy presents for my family now.

Finals!!!

Why am I taking too long!?

Oh and here.

Why the hell didn't I do this sooner? At least I finally got to use my pocket minora I got at CVS.

It looks cool.

I need to post a blog every day to get to 100!

Sorry for forgetting to post. I was working on my comic. AND IT'S DONE! I'm done, and I just need to upload it. But I'm still thinking if I should post it in the games portal with Bando's Comic Wizard or the portal art one. I'll just upload the cover in the art portal and give a link to the games portal

I have a like and dislike relationship with this.

I like it because it gives out new hope for internet animation. AND ALL THE PORN.

Made by @EmmanTroll15

But I dislike it because it's association with SMG4. And I really don't like SMG4. I know they're just giving it money. But I can never fully enjoy it. Thank Konami for porn.

I been working my ass off for this comic. I never knew drawing can be this fast in my PC.

My laptop was the worst for drawing or doing anything. If I keeled working on it on my laptop, I would have never get it done on time or ever finished it.

PC Master Race!